I can remember so often during my weight loss journey saying I wished I could get motivated. I would say that when I was struggling to take action to lose weight. I usually felt the desire to lose weight. In that sense, I was motivated. But, I couldn’t take that next step to action. I was missing a couple of pieces.
It was almost always easy for me to say that I was motivated to lose weight. Of course, I was. I wanted to be thin. I wanted to look good. I wanted to feel good. I wanted to be healthy. The desire to lose weight was there. So, yes, I was motivated.
My Motivation Failure
But, I remember one point somewhere around the year 2000 when I quit going to Weight Watchers meetings and quit trying to lose weight. I realized that I wasn’t really motivated. Oh, I still wanted to be thin. If I could have waved that magic wand and been thin the next day I would have done it. But, I wasn’t really consistently taking the actions that led to weight loss. And, I really hadn’t been for years.
During this time, I would go to a meeting and be resolved to follow the program. And, maybe I would do it for a week and I went back and had a loss. Then, something happened. We went out to eat when I hadn’t planned for it. Someone at work brought a treat and left it in the kitchen. I went downstairs and bought a candy bar from the vending machine. I got hungry late at night and ate too much. And, I knew I would have a gain so I didn’t go to my meeting. And, then a while later, I went back and I had gained a few pounds. And, sometimes I would then intensely work on weight loss for a few weeks and get back to where I started, but then I would fall away again. This went on over and over again.
Ah, yes. I have copies of some of my old Weight Watchers books. Here is the first one: